Changes...

Life changes all the time!  That is one thing you can count on!  When the kids went back to school this year, I was supposed to be going back to school myself to get a decree in Interior Design.  I had spent hours at the beginning of the year figuring out what I wanted to do and then talking to counselors and figuring out what classes transferred and which ones I needed to still take and how long it was going to take to finish.

Well, life has definitely changed!  I did not go back to school - at least in the sense that I thought I would. Instead, I am working at the kids' elementary school as an Instructional Assistant.  I think that just sounds better than "teachers aide". But, none the less, that is really what I am.  I assist the teachers with testing, working with kids that are struggling and basically just doing whatever the teachers need me to do.  I am in first grade and I work with 4 teachers.  It is fun to be in the same grade as Gavin.  I get to see my kids everyday and that is really fun.  I get to scope out the teachers to see who I want Sabrina to have next year.

But, I will have to say....  It is REALLY exhausting.  I don't know if it is because I haven't worked outside the home in 11 years or I am just a wimp.  But, my body is really tired all the time.  That is not a good thing, since I was pretty much tired most of the time before I started working.  I mainly took this job because I thought it would be a good opportunity to work and still be home when my kids are home, and I wanted to help our family out to try and make a dent in our debt.  That is what keeps me going.  This is one of the hardest things I have done in a REALLY long time and I don't know if I am cut out to be a working mom.  Anyway,  I am really going to try and make it through the school year and not be too cranky and short with my kids.  But, then we will have to re-evaluate for next year.

I still amazed at how mom's do it all and seem to do it all so well.  I know so many working mom's that are single, or just have to work and they do it with grace and seemingly ease!  I hope I can get to that point and I hope it is soon!